Somewhat Lonely

It's summer vacation, a time to stay up late and wake up at noon. School is finally over and endless game play begins. I thought I would be fine without hanging out with my friends but I find my need for social interaction increasing over the past few days. God, don't I sound anti-social. Truth is, don't laugh when I say this but I'm afraid to ask my friends to hangout. I understand that sounds quite ridiculous but I'm always afraid of getting rejected. I know they're my friends and I can call them up whenever I want but. *sigh* I've never really had that much courage to do things.

Do I need more courage? That's a definite yes. Games and comic books aren't gonna replace my amazing friends. Now I sound like a fat nerd blogging my life away. Maybe that's what I am. A nerd who can only communicate through technology cause I'm too shy to say anything. I'm not anti-social! I'm just not good with talking to people. Speeches make me sick to my stomach. I'm too shy to talk to anyone. Even if I do talk, I doubt anyone hears me. I'm so pessimistic. Sorry, I really do have issues when talking about myself.

Let's get this straight. I'm a really happy person, swear on life! I just feel like sometimes, I'm invisible. And it's somewhat lonely.

Thanks for hearing me rant a bit. Keep smiling! It's awesome when you do :)

-Jamie